I am so close, I may look distant.
So completely mixed with you, I may look separate. So out in the open, I appear hidden.
So silent, because I am constantly talking with you.
Thunder Moon, the full moon this month, is living up to its name. From all the information I have gathered from my reading and my own personal experiences, I’ve learned that the energy of this powerful moon is here to help us release the last vestiges of old and unproductive energy patterns that we are still holding onto, impressions that each of us carry as a result of old wounds. Some patterns are from this current life while some of them are so ancient that they are most likely carried over from past lives. They may have become so much a part of you that they seem that they ARE you.
Depending on where you are in your process, the energy might give you a gentle shaking as a reminder, or if it’s a really stubborn pattern, an immense earthquake. If this is the case, don’t be surprised if you come up against some volatility. You may feel more surges of anger, or have a tendency to butt heads with others. But you don’t need to get hooked by it. Recognize it for what it is, allow it to pass through, and use it as a way to release your old patterns, particularly your need for always being right and staying in control.
Look at your tendency to either push through no matter what or the opposite, stay silent when action is required. Observe the specific behavior that is bringing you pain. Be aware of your attachment to it. Allow yourself to wonder why you need to hold onto it. Just what is it giving you? Again, observe yourself. Notice if the attachment is getting any weaker. Look again at what you are getting from the attachment. Repeat until you are able to release your attachment, to let it go. When you give up those needs then you become more flexible and ironically more powerful. When you don’t have those desires and requirements, you’re not dependent on anyone for your needs. You can exist with or without them. This makes your relationships based on mutual respect and camaraderie rather than neediness. Getting used to that feeling of freedom when you drop the attachment can be exhilarating, scary, or both.
This releasing of old stuff has been going on for sometime now. As a result, you may have felt the need to go through your belongings and purge them. You may be facing a challenge to change some of your behaviors, such as your eating or other addictive behaviors, or your exercise regiment, or change other situations which may no longer serve you, like outdated relationships, jobs, or even your place of residence. From what I can gather, in the coming weeks, collectively we will be releasing negative emotional patterns as well. You will see this on the world stage as well as in your own life.
You might notice out in the world that there are things that are happening that seem to parallel with your inner changes and needs. One very clear example is the huge division and polarity “out there” within the population in the physical world. This, however, reflects our own inner divisions, the polarity that exists in each of us–our light versus our shadow side. It is important to look at both sides to not only appreciate your ability to give service and love in what is designated as “good” in the world, but also to recognize that shadow side that you may find intimidating to look at. But in actuality it is in both the dark and the light in which we garner our energy source. Just as a battery needs negative and positive charges so to do we need both the positive and negative to be fully charged and alive!
Remember, much of this is unconconscious unwinding and rewiring of old patterns; if possible it’s helpful to try to be conscious of this stuff as it is coming through. If you can stay conscious you may be able to realize what it is and not get hooked into it. But if not, the work will still get done, just not as quickly!